Chaz must have known
we had a sub in biology who said that he
didn't have anything planned for us, so if
we wanted to work on other homework or go
to the library we could. That's where I
was headed when Chaz came up to me from
behind. I could tell from the look on his
face that he was very upset. It didn't
take long to find out what it was
about.
Apparently Wendie
heard from somebody (it must have been my
ex-best friend, JoAnn) that I had met some
guy on the Internet. Well, actually what
he said he heard was that I was madly in
love with some older guy that I met online
and that he and I had cybersex!
I
told Chaz that was a total lie. And he
asked me if all of it was a lie. Well, I
just couldn't keep my feelings about Elvin
a secret from Chaz any longer. I mean, I
respect Chaz and I realized that I have
been treating him miserably! So I took a
deep breath and here's what I said,
"Chaz, I never meant
to hurt you. But you see, when I first
told my parents about us they got so
wigged out that they grounded me. They
wouldn't let me go over to friends' houses
or even receive phone calls!"
Then Chaz told me
that he had been trying to call me and he
wondered why I hadn't ever called him
back. I told him that they never even
told me that he had called! (You see, I
had been thinking that he wasn't
interested in me any more and that's why
he hadn't call. If I had only known, I
might not have turned to the Internet at
all. Or if I had gone into a chat room, I
probably wouldn't have gotten so
emotionally involved with Elvin. I guess
I was thinking that I didn't have Chaz any
more! But the truth was I did! I just
didn't know it!)
Then I told Chaz
that I had met someone on the Internet.
An 18 year old guy from England, and we've
chatted and exchanged email, but we
absolutely had NOT had cybersex! That's a
disgusting thought!
Chaz asked me if I
wanted to break up with him. I looked at
those sexy blue eyes of his and that sweet
mouth and I could tell how much he still
cared about me. And tell you the truth,
being there with him, I realized how much
I had missed spending time with him. I
mean, how can you compare a real
boyfriend, who smiles at you and holds
your hand, to some person out there in
cyberspace who you've never seen!? My
heart was racing when he asked me if I
wanted to break up. I answered him right
away. "No! I don't want to break up with
you, Chaz. I just want to find a way that
we can see each other, without my parents
getting all weird about it. I still
really like you a lot."
Then Chaz smiled,
and gently brushed the hair away from my
face. He said that he wanted to come over
and meet my parents because he felt
certain that if he could just talk to them
and let them know who he really was, that
they would feel better about the whole
thing.
There was such
confidence in the way he described himself
talking to my parents, that I could
actually start believing that it would
work out. I even got excited thinking
about what it would be like to be open and
honest with my parents and have them
approve of Chaz, who really is such a
sweet guy. I started feeling happier than
I had in a while and I promised Chaz that
we could go out next weekend and I would
set it up so that he could meet my parents
first. We were both really happy, and
exited too. That's when the bell rang.
Chaz gave me a quick kiss and told me he'd
call me tonight.
After dinner my
father told me about the surprise he had.
The company he works for is planning a
merger with a company in England. And as
part of the transition team, he has to go
there. Since the trip is scheduled for
our school's mid-winter break, my father
wanted to know if I wanted to go with him
and my mom, to London! Do I want to go?
Of course!!!!! And maybe I could actually
meet Elvin? Wouldn't that be amazing?
WAIT A MINUTE!!!!
What should I tell
Chaz?
|