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I Never Did Gymnastics
by Fairley

 

I never did gymnastics

too big, surely too clumsy.

Never dance

or trapeze,

Swimming my body was hidden under

big clothes and cover up.

Sitting watching only graceful slimness

and knowing I would never be.

Spending hours watching and seeking perfection.

Wasting life with a wave of mascara.

Unsatisfied, frustrated

and torn between my constant yearning for

acceptance, love, respect

and respect for myself.

Imagining how beautiful I could be

with only a few needed changes.

Imagining what I could then do.

I would be a dancer, a gymnast.

I'd swim, swim, swim

Instead I hid, hid.

Every day my body image shadowing all my

thoughts,

controlling many moves.

 

I know now that I am beautiful

I know now that beauty is so much,

ubiquitous in everyone some place.

I know I've been taught and controlled by a lie.

I know I am so much more.

I am aware that my tortured mind and

oppressed actions were unfair.

But then why do I still stand in front of the mirror?

It is so ingrained.

Why am I still afraid to dance or swim,

spend hours primping to perfection,

satisfied only when feeling loved

and beautiful?



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